Cheer Leader

If I'd be totally honest

What would you let me say

If I'd only listen and not question

You wouldn't see it another way

If I'd let you down once more

Who would you turn to next

If I'd give you my heart

Yours still wont let it rest

As much as I want to help you
There's only so much I can do

You must face life's challenges

But I can cheer for you

---

written 2011

Hide & Seek

I'll come find you

If you'll follow me

I'll sit with you

If you won't leave me

I'll share with you

If you'll pull it out of me

I so badly need you

Please don't give up on me

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written 2011

The Pretending Game

I'm tired

Of playing this silly game

Where we pass each other by

We smile, we chat

We nod and wink

Pretending that we care

While we'd both really rather 

Run along

Pretending we didn't see

I wish I wasn't such a fake

But even more

I wish we were both 

Happy for one another

Even if we'll never really 

Get to know each other

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written 2011

Beautiful Painful Pain

The pain of feeling

You can't ignore

The pain of trying

More and more

The pain of listening

To understand

The pain of honesty

A high demand

The pain of challenging

Who I am

The pain of knowing

It's in my hands

The pain of growing

From my mistakes

The pain in living

It's gives and takes

The pain of deciding

To overcome

The pain of learning

It's never done

The pain is painful

I want it to go

Yet the pain is beautiful

If I let it be so

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written 2011

Sometimes We Are The Same

Sometimes I just feel

I really need to cry

Sometimes there are no reasons

I really don’t know why

Sometimes I just need

To sit alone in solitude

Sometimes I just can’t socialize

It’s just that type of mood

Sometimes I just think

Perhaps I am depressed

Sometimes it just worries me

That my life is such a mess

Sometimes I just say

Things I never planned to share

Sometimes during those moments

I thought you might care

Sometimes things just hurt

It’s an ache deep inside

Sometimes I just can’t explain

Why I feel the need to hide

Sometimes I just wish

For a comforting embrace

Sometimes that is all it takes

For my worries to erase

Sometimes I just wonder

If others know my shame

So I peek into your soul

To find that we are much the same 

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written 2004

A Twisted Assumption

For years, I never knew

Love really exists

My heart made me assume

Life is only pain

Somehow

My heart kept yearning for more

I couldn’t stop it

So I wrote, I talked

I cried and questioned

Until I understood

Love really exists

I’m just twisted inside out

I’m blinded from the truth

Somehow

My heart manages to let go

I can’t stop it

So I write, I talk

I cry and find answers

Now I understand

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written 2011

Just Leave Me Alone

If I don’t ask

Please don’t answer

And if I ask

Just answer it clearly!

If I refuse

Please don’t demand

And if I give in

Just make it quick!

If I say it one way

Please don’t twist its truth

And if it differs from yours

Just know that doesn’t make me wrong

If I need solitude

Please don’t intrude

And if I’m ready for you

Just respect the need for space

If I walk my own path

Please don’t force me down your own

And if I stumble at your feet

Just remove your stone

---

written 2006

Nothing Matters

My heart flew away

And with it all my fears

My emotions

My love

My hatred

My heart

All have flown away

Far, far away

Nothing anymore

Has meaning to me

For my heart is not there-

Not there to love, to hate

To live

No, nothing matters

For without a heart

Nothing matters

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written 2003