A Dream In My Heart

I want to write

But I am scared

To let you know

What I have feared

I want to share

My secrets and fears

But I never built trust

To treasure my tears

I want to hug you

Hold you tight

But I don’t know how

To do it right

I want to thank you

For all you’ve done

But I assume it’s silly

You might make fun

I want to sing

Without being heard

As much as that seems

Completely absurd

I want to dance

But I’ve got two left feet

Please don’t compare me

Or I will retreat

I want to play

Spend time with you

But maybe you’re busy

With better things to do

I want to say

I love you

But it hurts to reveal

What I know is true

I always dream

Of how I will be

When nothing will scare me

When I will be free

I believe some day I will

Soar through the sky

I shan’t be scared

As you watch me fly high

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written 2003

Shine Your Light

Days have past

Weeks gone by

Yet memories stay strong

I remember

Cannot forget

The pain lasts so long

To watch him go

To disappear

Sends arrows through my heart

To lose control

To lose belief

Tears my soul apart

To see his picture

To hear his name

Stirs a tiny spark of hope

To give that smile

Rebuild belief

Helps me now to cope

To share a joke

A loving word

Is sharing who he was-

Spreading joy

Sincerely love

Only just because

A loyal friend

A devoted mate

The best Zeide to me

His eyes would sparkle

His smile so real

That’s how I want to be

I remember his words

Just be your best

In everything you do

So I’ll continue

Spreading light

Zeide, I’ll be just like you

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written 2004

Secret Admirer

I'm standing now

At a distance

You're in the corner of my eye

I watch you walk by

And I wonder

What is it that you think of

When you find me watching you

What is it that you feel then

When you turn to see me gaze

I'm standing now

Behind you

Just waiting for your smile

Just waiting for you to notice me

To approach me and say hi

And as I wait, I wonder

What is it that you thought of

When you wished to be noticed

To wait shyly at the side

And as I wonder

I suddenly notice you

In the corner of my eye

So I look up in surprise

I find you gazing at me mischievously 

A smile playing on your lips

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written 2005

My Magic Wand

I'd wave it in the air

Wistfully envisioning a wonderful place

And poof-

Glistening sparkles blind my eyes

No need to stress, to work so hard

My magical wand convinces me

Now lost in empty bliss

Suffocating in a world of golden dust

Oh Magic Wand!

Refusing to let go

I wave it frantically

And poof-

Sandy speckles replace golden dust

I squint, loosen my grip

My wand lays limp in hand

Oh Magic Wand!

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written 2011