Blinded

Where am I going?
What am I doing?
I feel lost, confused, unsure.

Even of how I feel,
Is it real?

What evidence do I need
To prove to myself
That I can succeed?

This endless pressure
Of needing more,
Better, better!

I can't keep up 
With my wishful demands,
I can't stand up to my ridiculous plans.

I'm tired, confused and lonely for sure,
I need reassurance 
Of what this is for.

Can you see me? I'm lost!
Can you hear me call out?

Please search till you find me,
Unless you've forgotten too
What this is all about.
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written 2016

You're Calling

You call. I hear the ringing in my ears.
I feel you pulling at my heart.
But I can't take your calls.

Your voice tricks me into obedience,
Belittling me, until I forget my stance;
What I believe, what I need, who I am.

You dismiss my words, disregard my time;
Leaving me to constantly pick up the pieces.
So I'm done. With you.

You don't want to hear the truth.
I won't waste my breath telling you.
Let my silence answer your questions.
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written 2016