If I would let myself tell you
Where I've come and gone
If I would let myself tell you
How far I have run
If I would let myself tell you
Where I now stand
Then maybe you could help me
And tell me you understand
If I would let myself tell you
About my hidden, darkened fears
If I would let myself tell you
Of my struggles through the years
If I would let myself tell you
My joy of breaking through
Then maybe you could help me
Continue what I do
If I would let myself tell you
Of the battles in my heart
If I would let myself tell you
What shatters me apart
If I would let myself tell you
How fragile I can be
Then maybe you could help me
Escape and just be free
If I would let myself tell you
Why I struggle with each word
If I would let myself tell you
How I'm scared of being heard
If I would let myself tell you
That I wish I could let go
Then maybe you could help me
Because then you would know
If I would let myself tell you
Then all this could disappear
If I would let myself tell you
Then you'd see me crystal clear
If I would let myself tell you
Then at least my tears would flow
Just maybe, maybe now
I'll allow you to know
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written 2005
WOW devorah you blow me away
ReplyDeleteThank you, you spoke from my inner spirit.
ReplyDeleteThank you for this! How many of us live with our walls up. My wish is that we all find that person we can open up to, a spouse a friend a rabbi and be ourselves.
ReplyDeletethank you Devorah for writing such a beautiful piece. This is really touching and has moved me to tears. I can relate to this every word. Please carry on writing and sharing.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes i have learned you can really tell someone - who you trust and yes - it is likely they will understand.............
deep, beautiful, and true. you inspire. this says to me that i'm not alone, and that it's ok to see the greatness i've achieved even though there's that other side of me i wish weren't there, and that there's hope. thank you
ReplyDeleteIn so few words, you reach so deeply to places I did not even know I had. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteThis poem is so beautiful, Devorah. Yasher koach. I immediately forwarded it to several friends.
ReplyDeletewow! this is really good
ReplyDeleteso true!
ReplyDeletewow! i really like this one! it really talks to me. you go so deep- but true. i connect to the struggle with each word- it always happens to me, i stutter over my words when i talk about myself because i'm so afraid to talk.
ReplyDeleteLove this, so many time i feel this way, but cant find the word to explain to others...
ReplyDeletethis poem is so me, love it;;
ReplyDeletethis is so true i love it
ReplyDeleteThis poem tells everything I feel inside my heart. It is more than beautiful.
ReplyDeleteYour are so blessed, i can really express my feelings throughout this poem
ReplyDeletesimply good
ReplyDeleteThank you. This captures so much of what I feel and have felt over the years. It is wonderful to see those feelings so beautifully expressed in print.
ReplyDeletephenomenal!!!
ReplyDeletei love u for this
ReplyDeleteno other poem could express me more:)
wow! i just wrote something so similar to this! esp about the eyes- how ur scared to look into the mirror and see the pain..
ReplyDeletethought provoking
ReplyDeleteand very profound
How wonderful.
Be blessed.