Blinded

Where am I going?
What am I doing?
I feel lost, confused, unsure.

Even of how I feel,
Is it real?

What evidence do I need
To prove to myself
That I can succeed?

This endless pressure
Of needing more,
Better, better!

I can't keep up 
With my wishful demands,
I can't stand up to my ridiculous plans.

I'm tired, confused and lonely for sure,
I need reassurance 
Of what this is for.

Can you see me? I'm lost!
Can you hear me call out?

Please search till you find me,
Unless you've forgotten too
What this is all about.
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written 2016