I Wonder

I wonder where you are

If you've really gone so far

If you've forgotten who I am

And what we used to share

I wonder what  you do

If you're happier this way

If you sometimes wish to return

Even if only to say hello

I wonder if you wonder

About me, as I, about you

If you remember what you told me

As we said goodbye-

I wonder if I'll ever know

If I'm meant to understand

I wonder how I'll manage

To forgive and start again

I wonder if you'll seek me out

If I'll ever hear your voice

I wonder if I must just accept

It seems I have no choice

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written 2011

Marching Down The Hall

Teasing moments of memories

Flit through my unsettled mind

Stilled and framed

And hung to remember

As I move along

An endless narrow hallway

Life

And when I am out of breath

I stop and peer at each picture

Framed, Captured

Now just a marching row

Of memories

Of what once was living moments

Life

I am living a new moment

I must continue marching

Down the hall

For soon I'll find today

Stilled and framed

And hung upon this very wall

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written 2011

I Love You Little Girl

I love you little girl

Just for being you

I love you because you are-

Simply existing

Brings me love and joy

I love you little girl

For continuing all that was-

Drawing it into the present

Creating an awesome future

You are now part of a special chain

Connecting us to one another

With boundless love and joy

We live

Continuing forward

It’s your link

The role you play

In joining the end

With the beginning

By just being you

I love you little girl

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written 2005

Whatever!

Whatever

I don’t care

You want me to

But I don’t

Just whatever

Whatever

I won’t pretend

You want me to

But I refuse

Just whatever!

Whatever

I can’t explain

You want me to

But I will not

Just whatever

Whatever

I am not you

You want me to be

But I never will-

Just whatever

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written 2003

Sail Away

Sail away from troubles

Sail away from fears

Sail away to a land of care

A land accepting tears

Sail away to a place so far

So far away from cruelty

So far away, Oh so far

So far away

To live and be

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written 2001

Goodbye

Goodbye

I must not turn back

I must not fall apart

I must not remember how much

I don't want to say goodbye

I'll somehow manage

To keep my heart frozen and numb

Since I'm not ready to cry

To mourn, to feel

But I know

I don't know how

To pretend

I can't fake it much longer

Soon I'll be forced to admit

My heart wasn't really numbed

Even though my tears

Were frozen in place

There is no point

In denying

The inevitable

So I'll let it come

Goodbye

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written 2011

Poetic Compost

If I leave it, I can retrieve it

I can even pretend it’ll disappear

But if I rip it, shred it away

Then you will never know it was here

In this moment of now

 I really don’t care

If you’ll ever see it again

Perhaps I may regret it

But I cannot fathom when

Some things He created

Are to exist for all time

Yet some are limited to time and space

Like this paper and my rhyme

Sometimes we confuse

What to treasure and what to dispose

We hold on to things that will not last

But dear treasures we let go

But either way, it’ll come and go

And if it’s really meant to be

Then I’ll write again, again and again

Until it’s a treasure to me

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written 2007

A Precious Gem

Let me tell you, my precious gem

No matter what, you’ll be my friend

Through the dark of night

Despair and fright-

We’re joined together

A chain forever

Don’t let go and lose your hope

Linked together we’ll learn to cope

Your smile so bright

Illuminates my night

It keeps me going, keeps me strong-

Through challenges and all that’s wrong

No matter what, I’m here for you

As friends forever, we’ll stick it through

Through sleepless nights

The many fights

The tears shed

The pounding head

The many thoughts

And many fears

Precious friend, I’ll wipe your tears

But when the time comes

And I must go

There’s just one thing

I want you to know

Wherever G-d sends you, you’re never alone

For deep in my heart, I’ve created your home

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written 2006

Run to Return

If you’d let me go

And release your grasp

I’d free myself

And run so fast

There’s no time to stroll

For my chance will soon be gone

No time to fall

Or get up to move on

Just time to run

Better yet- to fly

For joy only exists

Up in the sky

I want to reach up

Take hold of G-d’s hand

But I’m not meant to run

I now understand

Right where I am

Is where G-d wants me to be

My mission is clear

Cut out for me

Although I still yearn

To fly up to the sky

I’ll accomplish my tasks

And continue to try

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written 2005

Somehow

So intimidated

So little

Or so I wish

Somehow I've become

A wife, a mother

A big sister, a friend

I am not little

But my heart

My little heart

Does not realize

What I've managed

To become

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written 2011